The Diary Series (#2) – Haruna

Entry #30

DEAR DIARY,

HOLYYYY SHIT! I JUST SAW THE HANDSOMEST GUY I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE!!!!!

You think I'm exaggerating? If anything I might be underreacting. It actually gave me a shock when I saw him in class today, it was soooo unexpected!

But it's such a shame.... It turned out to just be that same delinquent who's been causing so many problems. I don't know what came over him, but it just shows how much he was ruining his own image before.

I feel slightly guilty for thinking he's attractive, but it doesn't really matter anyway. Even if he was some other guy and turned out to be nice as well, I just don't have the time and energy for dating.....

So it might actually be a bonus that it was the yakuza guy, this way I don't even have to think about it.

Anyway, he got into trouble again today, the student council president even came all the way to our class looking for him.

Turns out he punched another person last week, I'm genuinely confused as to why they've let him stay. Even if there's background dealings, aren't they worrying about tarnishing the school's reputation?

Souhei High is very well known, if people find out that they're favoring a gangster's son.....

Well whatever, I don't care as long as he stays away from us. Especially since Riku-tan said that there are rumors that he's forced women and then throws them away!

Well, I'm not sure if I believe that though. He's a troublemaker for sure, but everything that I've personally seen has to do with him getting into fights and acting roughly. I haven't even seen him with a woman since school started.

Plus, our class has a couple of beautiful girls such as Hina-tan, so if that really was the case wouldn't he have made a move on her or someone else?

Another reason why I think that's unlikely is because even though he looks MUCH better now, he was still attractive before. I'm sure if he tried there would be some girls who would be into his type?

I honestly don't know why I'm defending him, but that isn't a small accusation! It could ruin someone's life if it turned out to be false.

I don't want to doubt Riku-tan, but he looked a little anxious when he was telling us about those rumors.... I know he's been looking at both me and Hina-tan a little strange lately, but I've brushed it off. If what I'm thinking is right, that would make me really disappointed in Riku-tan....

Ah, whatever, let's leave the bothersome thoughts for future me hehe. I also wanted to talk about his crazy English skills! Everyone in class was suuuuuper shocked when the crazy guy read out a passage in perfect accent!

Even Kahawara-Sensei had smoke practically steaming out of his head, I had to really lock in just so that I didn't laugh lol. It makes me a little curious as to how he learned so well, but it's probably something like having to learn it to deal with international smuggling or some shit....

My imagination is pretty wild haha, I think it's time for me to go to bed. All-in-all, it was a crazy day!

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Entry #34

Dear Diary,

Classes have been really quiet lately, in a good way. They were always quiet before because everyone was walking on eggshells around Yagami-kun.

Now? Well the cause is still Yagami-kun, but it's because he's been really 'good' this week. Like, no troubles, no fights, no aggressive behavior...

It's almost like he's become a completely different person after his makeover! Maybe he wants to turn over a new leaf?

The reason I think that is because Fujimoto-san and the quiet green-haired boy, whose name I can't remember, have been hanging out with him lately. Neither of them are anywhere near the delinquent type, in fact they're both quite the opposite.

So when I saw them with Yagami-kun, my first instinct was to think that they were being bullied or used as bread shuttles.... But clearly that didn't seem to be the case, they looked quite happy.

I feel a little strange talking about some Yakuza delinquent so much in this diary, but he's truly a weird person that always has something going on around him! My own life is quite boring, so I guess I'm just entertained as if I'm watching some odd movie in real life.

I think I should focus more on what happens in my own life in the future for my entries.

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Entry #35

I want to kill myself.

Maybe jump off a cliff?

Burying myself might not be bad either, so that no one can see me.

AGGGHHH WHY DID I DO THAT!!??

I attacked someone today.With an umbrella.While cursing like a sailor.With tears in my eyes.For longer than I would like to admit....

In my defense, what else am I supposed to do when I walk into my house and see a yakuza standing over my grandmother, with his hand cocked back and a knife in his hand??

Well, the knife was actually a spoon.... But I thought it was something sharp at first!

Ahhhhh I feel so bad for Reiji-tan, even though he helped Granny so much today.... I did manage to apologize though, and I think we're friends now at least?

All things aside, the amount of shocks I've received today might even be enough for a defibrillator to bring a dead person back to life! I never expected Reiji-tan to be... that!

I don't even know how to describe him!

Weird? Strange? Confusing? Kind? Cool? Tall? Muscular? Unbelievably hot?

Um.... I got a bit distracted, but the point still stands. I never thought that the person I had secretly disliked turned out to be such a good person! He helped Granny against blackmailing scammers and even brought her stuff back from the market, completely different from what his image suggests.

Though he did skip last period, just like his image would suggest...

I had warned her to take a day off and wait for the wheelbarrow to be fixed, and it was even hotter than I expected today so I was worried. I wouldn't be surprised if she collapsed on the way back if she had to carry all of that by herself.

He even cooked for us, which Granny seemed angry about for some reason. Damn, my mouth is watering just thinking about that chicken, it's better than the one I had at a restaurant...

Where on Earth did he learn how to cook??? I should get him to make me something some other time, it would be a sin not to eat that again!

Man, Reiji-tan is like an onion. Like that cartoon movie said, the more you peel the more layers you find...

And now that I'm thinking about it..... Reiji-tan could have easily stopped me when I attacked him. But he just stood there, probably worried that it would scare me even more.

It seemed like the environment around him while growing up wasn't the best for obvious reasons, so I shouldn't have been so prejudiced when I saw him get into fights. People are the product of their surroundings after all!

Take me for example, my shitty sperm donor abandoned Mom and I, and she also 'left' a little later. That's made me so insecure, scared, and thrifty! I'm only halfway decent because of Granny, and Reiji-tan might not even have had that...

The conversation we had after the food was.... I don't know the last time I've shown someone this serious side of me, ugh. I hope he doesn't think of me as some psychotic girl, I think I came on a little strong with the questions...

And yet he turned out to be so thoughtful and sweet, even if he has a hot temper. No wonder Fujimoto-san and Ichihara-san like him, they probably realized this too when they actually talked to him.

Oh, I found out Ichihara-san's name today by asking Hina-tan haha, I felt bad not knowing a classmate's name.

The point is, this was a lesson for me. I should rely on my own interactions and experiences before judging someone, like Granny said. I can't change what I did in the past, but I can do better in the future.

I should also start chatting with Reiji-tan at school, so that the rest of the class sees his true side! Then he can make more friends and stop getting into fights. I should help him with this if I can, but I wonder if that might be crossing the line?

Hmmm, I think I'll talk to him first and then decide. I should also ask him not to tell anyone about my home situation, though he might not even think of it as a big deal. Let's see if I can intercept him before class tomorrow. It's Club Day anyway, so a lot of students might not even come to school.

About the clubs, Hina-tan decided to go with the reading club..... I don't really want to do that tbh, but I want to spend more time with her. What should I do.....

Well, maybe reading more will make me more 'book-smart', and then I can get better grades? I don't know man, I feel lost.

What will Reiji-tan choose? Maybe something athletic? He did have a nice body....

FUCK! AHHHH LET'S JUST GO TO SLEEP!