Ch 74 – 28 May, Utaha Mixed Feeling

Utaha Perspective

Utaha woke up on Monday morning with such mixed feelings. Yeah, she had such mixed feelings of unease, though she was fascinated, after yesterday's meeting at Kouta’s house. She sighed deeply and put her nightgown on the floor as she was about to change into her uniform.

As soon as Utaha saw herself in the mirror, she couldn’t help but remember what happened yesterday. To be honest, it was a good experience to have. Also, it was her first time cosplaying, and she was photographed in a somewhat embarrassing cosplay.

Well, of course, Utaha also gained something. She opened her smartphone and saw a picture of a cute guy with beautiful pink hair wearing her old uniform. Well, of course, those kinds of clothes were embarrassing to be worn by a guy. But he was surprisingly fine, as long as he got something back.

"Such a weird guy…" Utaha said it with a smile on her face.

He was her junior, named Suzuki Kouta, even though he had such a cute appearance that made him surprisingly charming. Also because of their interaction from their first meeting until now, which made him so trustworthy and dependable for Utaha.

And for Utaha, who rarely feels this way about men or people her age. This made Utaha inevitably feel a deep connection with Kouta. Well, she was still a rather introverted person. As a result, the deep love and kindness that she rarely displayed began to bloom.

"The problem is… What I’m going to do with this kind of complicated relationship…" That was something on her mind.

That day, when Kouta introduced Kashiwagi Eri to her, she was actually a famous beauty from her first year and also a new ace of the art club. Utaha, who had such high regard for Kashiwagi Eri because of how good her art was, couldn’t help but be surprised to see that person was actually her junior, Sawamura Spencer Eriri.

Well, of course she couldn’t help feeling jealous of her, because Eriri was so close to Kouta. At the same time, Eriri had some attitude toward her too. Maybe, because she is jealous of Utaha too. Yeah, it felt like they had a cat fight.

Of course, they are not always fighting, and there are times when they have a good conversation. Until that day, when Utaha witnessed Eriri's skill firsthand. It actually moved her to see her writing transformed into such beautiful artwork.

Seeing how skilled Eriri was when she was drawing at the same time, even though she complained about how nitpicking Kouta was with her artwork, her face showed how happy she actually was.

It was maybe the same face Utaha had when thinking about Kouta. At that moment, Utaha might realize how familiar Eriri was with her, especially when Eriri was actually hiding her job from anyone except some people she trusts.

That’s why Utaha couldn’t help but ask Eriri about how she felt about Kouta, but her answer was far from what Utaha expected. Eriri was talking about how she had some lingering feelings for her childhood friend. Utaha was confused by Eriri's answer, and there was some part of her that didn't believe her, but the way she talked about her childhood friend Utaha made her feel like there was some truth there.

So Utaha couldn’t help but ask Kouta about it. Yesterday, and from what he said about his feelings about the two of them. She realized how complicated their relationship was. Despite the fact that Utaha was a writer who wrote about high school romance with drama. She never thought she would experience triangle love like this. It actually drained her sanity...

Since there was part of her that wanted to become closer and friend with Eriri, especially when Utaha saw how expressive she actually was when just the three of them were together. Sometimes she acted like a small and cute animal after all.

So when they had those cosplay photo sessions, Utaha actually had some fun doing it. The problem was after that… Yeah, after that something made her have such mixed feelings.

Utaha felt suspicious because Eriri told her she went to the bathroom for a long time. So she went downstairs toward the kitchen. She only saw Kouta at the kitchen table, while Eriri was nowhere to be seen. But at that moment, there was a voice coming from a Kouta smartphone.

Utaha felt like she heard some weird noises from Kouta’s direction, and she also heard Eriri's voice come in his direction. Utaha even couldn’t see her. It was so suspicious… Kouta said that Eriri made a mistake and told Utaha that Eriri was cleaning.

It was a reasonable answer… It’s just Utaha couldn’t throw a weird suspicion about it. But, there was no way they were making what sounded like a lewd sound.

Before Eriri laughed at her suspicion, that made Utaha’s face blush because of embarrassment. After that, they had dinner, and when it was time to sleep, Eriri and Utaha slept in the same room.

At that moment, Eriri  threw out a bold question at her.

"So what do you think about Kouta? Do you like him?"

"Eh…" Utaha was surprised when Eriri asked those questions.

"Well? You asked that question to me days ago, right? So it's only fair that I listen to your feelings as well, right?"

"Well, that’s true." Utaha has already asked those questions to either Eriri or Kouta. Just like Eriri said, it wasn’t fair for her to not answer the same type of question. "I can’t lie and say that I find him really dependable, even though he has such a cute appearance. So yeah… I might like him." Honestly speaking, Utaha thought it rather embarrassing to say this.

"Hm… That’s not really surprising." Eriri replied as if she already expected those answers. She closed her eyes and arms crossed on her chest, nodding. "Since before dinner you may feel jealous that you accuse us of doing something lewd…"

Eriri felt like she had found her newfound weakness, so she teased Utaha, who immediately blushed.

"No… Of course not… That's all on you two for doing something so secretive and suspicious... and I hear something… that sounds lewd…" Utaha replied while she became slightly irritated with Eriri’s accusation.

"Hahaha… I mean there is no way. We’re doing something lewd in open space while there are you upstairs right?" Eriri replied, but Utaha found her answer questionable when she grinned like she teased her.

"That might be true, but…" Utaha couldn’t just throw her suspicions out after seeing how Eriri acted. But what she said was kind of true too, since there was no way a sane person would do something lewd at that moment. Or they were just perverted people.

"I wonder… why Utaha-senpai immediately thought in that direction… are you perhaps sexually frustrated… Utaha-senpai?" Once again, Eriri said such an absurd and shameless thing toward Utaha, who responded with an annoyed expression.

"What are you talking… Eriri!!"

"Is fine… fine… we're just the two of us in this room, and this is a great opportunity to get to know each other."

"Even so… those questions are too personal…"

"Yeah, that might be true…"

"Anyway… It’s just the two of you at that time that are so suspicious that I can’t help thinking like that." Utaha spoke from her own conviction.

"Hm… If that is the case… Utaha-senpai…" Eriri’s face changed to an evil grin and moved closer at Utaha. It surprised Utaha that she stepped back until she was cornered. "What… if we do that… Me and Kouta did a lewd thing…" Eriri whispered in her ear.

"What!? That!?" Utaha gave a surprised yelp, before Eriri smiled at her and continued.

"Yeah… Just like your imagination… We are perverts that do lewd things in open spaces while someone might find out about us… and importantly we did it without even going out with each other… just looking for pleasure…"

"Ugh… that… that… filthy…" Utaha couldn’t find anything to respond other than saying that.

"Hm… that might be true… but I wonder what you will do…if that’s true…"

Eriri stepped back and spoke with such confidence in her face. It was a face that Utaha couldn’t comprehend at all.

Before Eriri once again gave her a devilish grin and said something outrageous to Utaha…

"Also… Kouta had such fine specimens.. .you know… Utaha-senpai, you might drown in pleasure…"

"What… that…"

"Huhuhu… You don’t need to take this seriously, Utaha-senpai… I’m just joking. I mean… there is no way we were so perverted that doing so in open space." Eriri shrugged her shoulders before she went back to her futon.

"Ugh…" Utaha wasn't satisfied with this, but she couldn’t ask Eriri either… She didn’t know if she answered with the truth or just joking. But after that, there was something else that happened to her.

Yeah, that night… Utaha actually had a very lewd dream… It was a dream, with the scenario not far from what happened in the kitchen. In that dream, Utaha actually caught Eriri and Kouta doing a lewd thing, but rather than be surprised or stopped… The two of them continued and became more daring with their action. Because of what Eriri said to her, Kouta’s penis in her dream was a fine specimen of men… that Utaha couldn’t believe it could fit on Eriri.

And the reason Utaha had mixed feelings was at that moment, she was not only feeling angry, betrayed, and jealous…. She was actually feeling another thing… which was… she was aroused by what she saw…

Utaha couldn't stop blushing when she saw Kouta, and she couldn't stop herself from peering at Kouta's crotch.

"Ugh… I can’t believe it… I have such a dirty mind…" Utaha said after she finished reminiscing about what happened at Kouta’s home. It was another turning point in her life.