CH 36: DISCUSSION WITH RAM

"*Sigh* I feel like I am the bad guy now."

*Splash*

I played a little in the hot water of my bath as I thought back to my fight against Rem.

I took no pleasure in such victory. All I wanted was for us to have an enjoyable fight.

Either since I obtained my power, I would sometimes fight against Erza or Saeko and it was always exhilarating.

The feeling of sharpened focus, the blood pumping and my sense widening.

I liked fighting. No, I loved it. It made me feel alive. It was the undeniable proof that I had a healthy and powerful body.

But, this pleasure did not exist when I was fighting Rem.

It was becoming a chore, and I hated that.

{You shouldn't feel bad. That girl is only a little spoiled.}

'Spoiled huh.'

To be honest I understood Rem frustration. Or rather I understood where it came from.

Rem and Ram were two of the last three Oni. From what Ram told me, they had a big sister, but she refused to name her. It seemed that they didn't really have a harmonious relationship.

Officially, the Oni clan—an extremely powerful clan—had been eradicated in one night by Unknown assailants. But, we knew the culprit.

The witch cult, an organization that seemingly worshiped the witch of Envy, Satella.

Though, I knew that it wasn't all there was to it. The witch cult was in reality under the control of the witch of Vainglory, Pandora.

I hoped to never ever meet that woman. She was basically a goddess. The authority of Vainglory was simply too out of this world.

Sometimes I wondered why the author of Re zero created so many broken characters but gave basically nothing to Subaru.

Perhaps he got off from writing about the suffering of his mc?

Well, to make the story short.

Rem and Ram got their clan exterminated by the witch cult.

I was a warlock.

Meaning their clan got exterminated by someone like me.

I could argue about how I had nothing to do with it. But reasons and feelings never worked well together.

'Well, at least Ram doesn't hate me.'

Ram was something of a close friend. Perhaps the closest friend I had in this world. I would be a little sad if she also began to hate me.

'Friends.'

This concept was rather foreign to me. I remember having friends when I was younger and still healthy, but as time passed and my diseases worsened, my so-called friends vanished one after another.

Though I didn't hold bad feelings about that. I would have also ditched them if they were in the same situation I was back then.

"Well, enough of that. I think it's time I go discuss with her."

My voice echoed in the needlessly large bathroom.

I liked to think that I was an okay guy. My trigger was high and I didn't become angry easily.

But, I refused to continue feeling bad about something I had no relationship with. If after this much needed discussion she continued to dislike me, then so be it. I would just forget about her.

I didn't have the time to go beg a girl to forgive me for a crime I did not commit. Having a tragic past didn't mean you could act like an emo bitch and blame everyone. I knew it from a personal experience.

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"This house is needlessly big."

I thought as I walked in the corridor. It wasn't the first time I had this thought. In this house only I, Mamako, Shuka and the twins were present.

Wilhelm lived in another house a little apart. So, a super large mansion for just five people.

'Being rich sure feels good.'

I could never stress how important money was. After all, if my past parents had enough money perhaps I could have been healed.

'Well, forget it.'

I discarded the thought about my shitty past and simply went my way.

It didn't take long for me to find the room I was searching for .

*Knock* *Knock* *Knock*

"Enter."

A young voice answered from behind the door.

Opening the door, I looked around at the surprisingly bleak room.

Even though it was relatively large, the sole decoration was a bed, and a bureau on the side. Nothing more.

"Your room is as depressing as always."

"Oh?" Ram tilted her head in wonder. "Is it how the one doing a night crawling should say? So, what brings you to me? Are you here to ravish me after ravishing my sister?"

I smiled at her theatrics and simply patted her head before going further in the room and taking a place on the bed.

"Now, hop on here."

Ram scowled a little but simply shrugged before walking and talking a place on my laps.

"Ufufu~You are so squishy."

"Stop treating me like a plushy."

I ignored her plea and simply hugged her stronger before asking.

"Are you ready?"

"...Do it."

I closed my eyes and focused on my mana before slowly bringing it out and transferring it to the one sitting close to me.

This was another change that happened in the last few months.

Mamako decided that having me do the transfer of mana to Ram would bring more results and she wasn't wrong.

Ram wounds was caused because of a member of the witch cult. Even now, the mana of the witch corroded her own mana.

Each time Mamako gave her mana, she had to fight against the witch mana while giving her own. This caused the process to be rather lengthy since Mamako couldn't just go all out and overpower the witch mana without hurting Ram.

I, on the other hand, was also a warlock at the same rank as Satella. Even though I was definitely weaker, the quality of our mana was the same.

So when I transferred my Mana to Ram. Not only there was no waste, but instead, she showed some signs of healing.

"Nn~!"

Ram stifled a moan as she covered her mouth with her hand.

Currently she wasn't wearing her usual maid clothes but rather a white one piece dress.

I could feel her butt wiggle on my laps and I had to give my all to not stiff a boner. After all, even though she had a rather flat chest and short frame, Ram was extremely cute and could even be called sexy.

The process lasted for about five minutes. Five minutes during which she continued to moan and wiggle again and again.

*Huff* *Huff* *Huff*

"You be–beast."

Ram stammered with her breath still rough and a little saliva flowing from the corner of her mouth. Her face was completely flushed.

"Heh. A beast?" I tightened my grip on her and brought my hand on her thighs before slowly caressing it upward. Meanwhile, I bit her naked shoulder in a playful way.

During all this time Ram stayed silent but didn't particularly protest. Still, I stopped my hand short of completely reaching her crotch.

I knew what kind of effects the mana transfer brought to her, after nibbling her earlobes which brought a low shriek from her. I stopped doing anything Erotic as I said.

"Trust me. You still haven't seen the true beast in me."

Did Ram love me? I didn't think so. At least she wasn't totally in love with me. Even though her affection was already close to 100, it could evolve to anything depending on how I handled it.

Still, I was in no hurry. I wanted to create meaningful connections with the women around me.

Ram leaned on me and slowly but surely caught her breath before asking,

"It seems like your victory today didn't bring you any happiness. Shouldn't you be happy now that you surpassed Rem?"

Shrugging, "I have no interest in fighting someone who isn't giving it their all. I still can't affect magic with my gravity. If she used her ice spells, she could counter the two aspects of my melancholia and the fight would have been less one sided."

Training was all about knowing your weaknesses and becoming stronger. If your training didn't bring you anything, then it was simply a waste of time.

Ram stayed silent for a little while before jumping from my laps.

"Well, I need to change my underwear, so if you will. It's time for you to leave my room."

She didn't test me by asking if I wanted to stay and watch her changing. She did it once and I showed her that nothing could embarrass me.

"No problem. I need to rest a little. In a few days things will become busy."

Ram nodded, "Akira-sama,"

"Hum?"

"Rem is…" She hesitated before continuing, "Rem is really an earnest and a good girl. Please give her a chance."

I locked eyes with Ram. It was the first time I saw her so vulnerable and it was also the first she begged me in such a way.

The Ram I knew was an extremely prideful girl. Only when it came to her sister would she throw that pride away. Be it in this world or in the Canon, Ram was without a doubt the kind of sister we all wished to have.

Patting her head, I gave her my most sincere smile and simply left.

Some things didn't need to be said to be understood.

'Well, I think it's time to have a discussion with the blue oni.'