CH 79: Awkward Conversation

After satisfying Elsie’s lust for revenge, the party fell asleep in a puddle of limbs. Ursa, in the adjourning room, was left frustrated and horny. Her body craved the companionship that her neighbors had. She was left with an emptiness in her chest that ached to be filled. She was taught to ignore that feeling, taught that she should rely solely on herself. The woman finally realized how lonely that life was.

It was nearly soul-crushing to come to that realization. That her people subjected themselves to this loneliness due to their warrior pride or whatever excuse they told themselves. Was this really the life that their goddess wanted them to live? A life of constant loneliness and isolation? It made Ursa doubt her goddess’s intentions for her people.

Ursa slowly drifted off to sleep with that question still swirling in her mind. In the other room, all five members were sound asleep in each others’ arms. Unknowing of the state of their guest’s identity crisis.

The next day, Claire awoke covered in the limbs of her lovers. Both twins were resting their heads on her chest while Jasmine and Lily cuddled behind them. All of their arms rested on Claire as their legs intertwined in a mess of limbs. She awoke with a smile on her face and was sexually satisfied.

She lay there for a good minute feeling their collective warmth before she decided whether or not to get up. She didn’t want to disturb her lovers’ sleep, but she also wanted to check up on Ursa. She was worried that Elsie had taken her teasing too far last night. Lily and Jasmine had told her more about Ursa’s culture and Ravian warriors’ code of honor.

She couldn’t imagine how lonely the woman felt, especially next to their party. She did her best to ease out of the warm embrace, but both twins tightened their grip on her. Her sleeping lovers didn’t want their pillow to leave. Claire let out a giggle before easing the two off of her. She made eye contact with Jasmine, who had awoken. Jasmine pulled Elsie into her grasp, claiming the older twin, while Ana clung to Claire. Claire was able to turn the younger twin towards Lily, who she immediately cuddled up to.

Claire mouthed a thanks to Jasmine before sneaking off the bed. Jasmine was too focused on cuddling with Elsie to respond. Claire bit her lip as she put on her clothes, she was trying to think of how best to talk to the woman. She didn’t want to scare her off or put too much pressure on Ursa to accept the gift. She made her way to the door, glancing back at the two snuggling pairs before exiting.

“Maybe just offer my company… or someone to talk to?” Claire said aloud. She was standing before their neighbor’s door, hesitant to knock. She took a deep breath, ready to knock on the door when it opened. She stepped back in surprise while a groggy Ursa looked back at her.

“Ahh… sorry, I came to check on you.” Claire got out. Ursa was rubbing the sleep out of her eye and just nodded back.

“Oh, I’ll apologize too.” Ursa got out, her voice deeper due to just waking up. “I’m a light sleeper. Didn’t mean to scare you.”

Claire’s heart rate returned to normal after the initial scare. She took in the sleepy Ursa’s appearance, the slight bedhead and wrinkled clothes. Ursa was lucky she changed before falling asleep, her stained clothes sat in a pile beside her bed. Claire’s breath caught upon seeing Ursa’s exposed midriff, her abs on full display for Claire. Claire bit her lip as Ursa straightened up.

“Fuck… sorry, let me put something decent on,” Ursa said, a bit more awake now. Claire’s smell, while aroused, was nearly intoxicating to the woman and instantly awoke her. She found clothes provided by the inn that were far more conservative. She hastily covered herself before opening the door again. Her face was flush and felt hot as she opened the door to the star-struck redhead.

Claire’s mouth was slightly ajar before she straightened up. Her face reddened before she got out. “Sorry, I kind of can’t help it…”

Ursa shushed her. “I-it’s okay. I’m slowly getting used to it.” The two stood in awkward silence for a moment before Ursa finally spoke. “You’re welcome to come in.”

Claire nodded and followed the woman inside. She could vaguely smell a familiar scent that she couldn’t quite put her finger on. Ursa offered her the seat by her bed while she sat on her bed. Silence fell over the two again.

Ursa avoided Claire’s gaze, her own smell was overwhelming around her. She hoped that Claire couldn’t pick up on it. Her blush quickly overtook her tanned skin before Claire finally broke the ice.

“I have to apologize for last night… Elsie was still mad at you.” Claire said, squirming in her seat. It was weird having to dance around her party’s activities, but she knew Ursa felt uncomfortable. “I-I would have stopped it if I had known…”

Ursa shook her head. “It’s okay… I understand you all are extremely…” She couldn’t get the word ‘horny’ to come out of her mouth. It stuck to the back of her throat before she finally settled on a different one. “Needy… especially the annoying one.”

Claire’s laugh broke out as she heard Ursa’s nickname for Elsie. “Yeaaah, she’s… a lot.” The two women eased slightly, the tension finally being broken. Claire took a moment before speaking. “I’m not here for anything related to my class or you joining us, I just wanted to make sure you were okay. You seem… lonely.”

Ursa leaned back slightly, Claire’s final word rattled in her mind. She was right. Ursa felt incredibly lonely even before meeting this group. She let out a sigh and nodded. “Yeah… I realize it now. I now get why my sister left our tribe. She was right about us being ‘stuck in our ways.’”

Claire just nodded, she just let Ursa talk. “I thought she was an idiot or weak… I said so many things I regret now…” Ursa took a deep, long breath before leaning back onto her bed. “Fuck…”

Claire moved from her chair and sat next to Ursa on the bed. The woman was scowling at the ceiling. “Can’t you apologize?” Claire asked softly.

Ursa frowned. “Maybe… I was pretty cruel to her when she left…” Ursa grumbled out. “I doubt she wants to hear it.”

“You never know,” Claire said. She briefly thought about her own brother and how badly she wanted to see him again. “I would kill just to see Ryley again…” Claire felt a pain in her chest as she said the word ‘kill.’ It still scared her, but she knew she had to live with it.

“Ryley? That your brother’s name?” Ursa asked, finally looking at Claire. Claire just nodded with a weak smile.

“We had an argument that day. Something so stupid and meaningless that I can’t even remember what it was about.” Claire said, holding back her emotions. She took a deep breath and continued. “I said some horrible words to him and then, he was just gone.”

Silence fell over the two again. Ursa hesitated to even talk about this kind of thing or offer comfort. It was not something she had known how to do or what to offer the woman. She was just about to reach out when Claire let out a sigh and fell back onto the bed next to her.

“Fuck… let my emotions control me again,” Claire said, cursing herself for getting caught up again. “I came over to help you, not talk about myself.” She lay next to Ursa, her green eyes focused on Ursa. Ursa felt her heart skip a beat as she stared into those bright green eyes, her face heated up and her mind blanked.

Claire let out another laugh at Ursa’s shocked expression. It reminded her of Ana in so many ways but with a rougher exterior. “Sorry.” She said, scooting back from the stunned woman. “Not used to personal space anymore… What I was trying to say by bringing up Ryley was: If you have an opportunity to apologize, you should take it. I’m sure she’d be happy to see you.”

“Maybe.” Ursa got out. Her heart rate was slowly slowing down. Claire had gotten too close to her and nearly sent her heart racing. It wasn’t helping that Claire’s aroma alone was nearly too much for her.

“Think about it,” Claire said. She wanted to urge Ursa to reunite with her sister, but she knew that was pushing her own wishes on Ursa. This conversation wasn’t going as she had hoped. She rubbed the back of her head before continuing. “I will help in any way you need. Um, that’s kind of what I came over here to say. I put my faith in my goddess that you are trustworthy, and I plan on helping you any way I can.”

“Okay… um, that also will take a while for me to get used to,” Ursa said, her eyes returning to the ceiling. “Ravian culture isn’t too keen on warriors relying on others. We’re supposed to be pillars of our tribe, able to stand on our own and be relied upon. So… it will take me some time.”

Claire smiled at the woman. Ursa had a lot to get used to it seemed. She just hoped the woman was strong enough to adapt to this foreign environment. “It’s all good. We are asking a lot out of you.” Claire said.

Ursa just snorted. “You can say that again…”

Silence fell over the two again before Claire got up. She wanted to give her space to think about everything. “Just let us know if anything is too much. We’ll help you. And I swear Elsie gets better when you get to know her.”

Ursa let out another snort before Claire left the room. Claire was relieved that their conversation went so well.