185 — Under the Stars VII

I'd always managed to pull out with Mia. Every single time. Even though we had been rawdogging it ever since the first night we did it in the Training Center.

With Su Ah... I'd just... lost control.

For the first real, actual, mind-numbingly intense fuck of my life, I'd forgotten the single most important rule I had set for myself. This stupid game of Russian roulette I had been playing with my own sisters was not something I intended to lose. Now that I had, the guilt, mixed with the aftershocks of an explosive release, hit me like a bolt of lightning.

"Is it a safe day?" I repeated, my voice harsher than I intended. I was kicking myself internally. What kind of idiot asks that after the fact?

We should have discussed the consequences of intercourse in a mountain before this could have happened, right?

Still, the sight of her blood and my own essence mixing together had my jaw clench painfully. I'd come this far with her, I should have exercised better caution. I sat there, my eyes going back and forth from her pretty, panting, red, thoroughly fucked-out face, and the mess in between her thighs.

"Umh..." Su Ah's voice was small, shaky. She pushed herself up on her elbows, looking down at the mess between her legs. Her expression was unreadable, a strange mixture of wonder and horror. "It... should be." She stammered, her mind clearly racing through her own internal calendar. "I... I think it is. But I'm not sure..."

I sat up straight. That uncertainty made it a little more concerning. It only cemented further the fact that I had done the unthinkable; had, by proxy, condemned two lives by sheer chance. Still, not all was lost and we both knew that. "You can take the morning after pill..."

"Yes." She murmured, her beautiful pale features contorted into a pinched, guilty expression. As if it was entirely her fault, instead of both of us having decided this all at once.

"I couldn't control myself, sorry about that." I tried to apologize, even though I was not completely sure what exactly I should be sorry for. She had wanted it, just as much as I did. She didn't caution me to pull out, probably didn't even cross her mind.

But it was true that she hadn't begged for it, like Mia usually did.

Su Ah merely glanced down to where her hand hovered above the smeared, bloodied, leaking crevice between her legs and shook her head. "Don't... it's not your fault. Actually... this, the chance to experience what it feels like..." Her eyes turned wistful. Then she raised her gaze back to me, cheeks so hot her entire face might have been lit aflame. "To feel you come inside me like that, it was... it was the best sensation I'd ever felt in my entire life. I... I wouldn't mind doing it again, if it's with you."

She averted her gaze, leaning back on her hands.

"......."

The sight of her nakedness and her flushed, disheveled form was as hot as seeing Mia's nude, deflowered body for the first time.

I still couldn't believe that this was the kind of path I was pursuing in this new life of mine. Out of all the girls I could've fucked, the first one to have ever taken my cock raw and deep, was my own sister. But I did know one thing; my body, heart, and mind wouldn't allow me to give either of them up.

I was just concerned about what the future held, and if this type of relationship could last under all the pressure we'd be facing in the following months. I was also concerned that one day, maybe, both of them would want to get married, to have children, and how would I deal with that?

What kind of twisted family would I be, if I kept both of them all to myself?

I couldn't even imagine the scandal such an arrangement would bring.

I didn't think Su Ah and Mia had thought that far, and I wouldn't mention it. For now, we'd have to figure things out on the fly, as we went.

But it did sting a little, thinking about how they might change their minds down the road, that being with me might not be enough. That I, eventually, wouldn't be enough for them, either.

"I wouldn't mind, either." I found myself saying, not really surprising myself at this point. When all was said and done, it was a simple truth. "In fact, I can't think of a single other girl I'd rather be doing this with."

"Jae-il..."

Her eyes widened for a fraction of a second before she broke into this beautiful half-lidded smile. And it'd have been even more beautiful, if only her eyes weren't so... murky.

I frowned, blinked, and then that look was gone. As if I'd imagined it.

"So..." Su Ah then cleared her throat and sat up properly. "We... should probably clean up a little. It's kind of... sticky."

I let out a snort at her deadpan expression.

She looked at the state of the sleeping bag. "Oh, this is... this is a disaster."

Well, she wasn't wrong. There were literal stains. All kinds. Sweat. Blood. Cum. We peeled ourselves off the sleeping bag with a wince and a groan.

The cold mountain air hit our naked bodies, making us shiver.

"Welp, there goes our sleeping bag." I commented, peeling it off the ground and trying to fold it in a way that hid the evidence. It was a futile effort. It looked like a crime scene. A very, very happy crime scene. "I don't think it's... usable anymore. It's way too wet and... soiled."

Su Ah wrinkled her nose. "Sacrifice it to the elements."

"Not much choice in that, is there?" I laughed. "It's not like we're carrying it home."

We used what was left of the small towel I'd pulled from my pack to clean up the best we could. The rough fabric was cold against my skin, and the limited supply of material meant taking turns.

After she was done, her movements awkward but determined, it was my turn.

The rain outside was still quite strong, though now showing signs of letting up a little.

"Come on." I said, unrolling my own, dry sleeping bag next to the ruined one. "In here."

Su Ah ducked her head, the ghost of a blush returning to her cheeks, and slipped inside after me. We lay there, facing each other. The air was crisp now, but the warmth of our bodies started to chase the chill away. It would take a bit of time, but we weren't overly worried.

"Okay, first of all. How are you feeling, really?"

Su Ah craned her neck, face to the cavern's roof. Her eyes were hooded. "Good." She let out a low, satisfied moan, closing her legs slowly. "Very good, in fact."

The tension that had lingered in her eyes finally broke into a soft, sweet expression of peace.

"How about you?" She returned.

"Better... and emptier."

She snorted, smirking.

"Are you... sore?"

She shrugged. "Little. I don't... regret any of it, if you're wondering. Just a little nervous about how this is going to turn out for us. I'm not stupid, I know we can't exactly advertise ourselves. And I also know this could have huge repercussions for you... but I just couldn't help myself."

"We both wanted it." I said—and while there was a degree of manipulation in which Su Ah set everything up, it wasn't anything malicious. At some point, this desire became mutual. I couldn't and wouldn't lie about the effect of this lust upon my judgment, nor the fact that I was still suffering the hangover of a soul-crushing sex high.

"I feel better knowing that, Jae-il."

Su Ah curled up a little. We were still naked and my dick was nestled up against her soft, damp skin. Her hand, which had been previously resting on my chest, wrapped around my flaccid cock and give it a curious squeeze. Naturally, blood rushed to fill the soft flesh at her touch.

A curious sparkle entered Su Ah's eyes. "Well, well... someone's awake again. Should we..." She tilted her head. "... go for another round?"

I chuckled. "Tempting, Noona. Very tempting. But after losing control once... I don't trust myself with a second helping tonight. At least not one that ends properly inside you... which is something we should avoid if we don't want a mini Jae-il or a mini Su Ah unexpectedly coming into the world."

A blush climbed all the way to Su Ah's ears. She flicked an annoyed glare at my very amused smirk. "Humph. I see how it is..." She huffed, although there was nothing of genuine annoyance in her expression or tone. "I'm surprised you say that, do males generally lack self-control?"

"Self-restraint, yes. I've had more than enough in the last couple of months. And the occasional lapse in judgment here and there."

"Only Mia Unnie knows the extent of those lapses in judgment?"

"Sometimes we also forget to lock the door." I shrugged. "But it never happened to me that I couldn't pull out in time."

"You really do manage to make pulling out sound so heroic." She commented, giving my cock a slow pump, feeling it twitch and swell at the stimulation.

I sniffed and replied proudly. "Because it is. Only the strongest can overcome the overwhelming drive to come. Resisting such desires is like swimming against the current."

Su Ah looked pensive at my response. A different kind of glimmer appeared in her gaze. She leaned in closer, her breasts brushing against my chest. Her fingers gave another, softer squeeze, her thumb brushing across the flared tip of my throbbing cock. "Never happened before, hmm? Wait, does that mean... you've never come inside Mia Unnie?"

"Yeah, actually."

Then again, it might've been Mia's desperation for my seed inside her that somehow managed to stop me each and every time.

Su Ah's breathing stuttered, then her eyes hooded into slits, peering at me through dark lashes. "Oh, really? Are you saying that my pussy feels better than Mia Unnie's? Is that what's going on here, hmm~?"

My cock gave a spasm, responding with an even stronger surge of arousal. Not because of her words, but because her hand on my dick was just way too effective.

And, yeah, certainly, there was definitely some vindication at her words at the thought that she felt better than her own sister.

And holy shit was that just too fucking perverted a train of thought. But damn if I wasn't enjoying every bit of it.

"He's an honest little fellow."

"Is he, now?"

I smiled smugly as I let her slowly tease and arouse me. My gaze grew a bit unfocused after a while and a strangled laugh bubbled out of my throat as her teasing touch pulled my balls tighter and I started growing harder by the moment, until I was fully and exquisitely erect within Su Ah's hand.

It felt like her soft palm was made just for me. I reached for her breasts with both hands. I caught her right breast with my mouth as she was caressing it with her hand and tongued her nipple.

As she softly sighed with pleasure and writhed a little under the combined assault, she squirmed towards the feel of my mouth.

"You... haven't... ahnn~... answered yet."

I looked up at her. My eyes must've been a little hazy with how crazy she was pumping my hard-on, which, by the way, was a welcome but fairly torturous development. "Which question?"

"You... ah, nevermind.."

Then I kissed her and she moaned and writhed. I loved the way the sides of her that were both shy, quiet, reserved, and naughty, were interplaying. My hand moved from her breast all the way down to her tummy, and further down still.

"Jae-il~"

She stiffened, and shivered when I slipped a finger along the edges of her labia. She felt soft and moist and inviting, and very aroused, especially considering all we had done already.

And then we were a tangle of limbs.

We didn't go all the way. Just kissed and rubbed each other out until we had to get up and clean up the outcome of our second orgasm.

"At this rate, we might have to sacrifice this one to the elements too."

I said, and Su Ah burst out laughing against my chest. Within minutes her breathing evened out, soft with the deep descent into sleep, one leg draped over mine, her hand still tucked possessively around my half-awake length as if she'd hoped to bring it to her dreams too.

As for me?

I didn't. I stayed awake. Couldn't really trust myself to sleep peacefully when we were, technically, in the wilderness.

I held this stupid sister of mine for hours on end, until the storm passed the summit and quiet gradually enveloped us.

That day I realized how down bad I was for Su Ah too.

And now I had two sets of shackles, of chains, around my neck.